I'm torn...

I am so ready to have this baby.

I'm further than I got with Trevin and each day I wait and wonder, "will today be the day?" I know he's not ready and it would be best for him to wait at least one more week until he's technically full-term. Who wants to spend time in the NICU anyway? This week is also really not a good week for him to come since Bryce's dad and stepmom are out of town and my sister is busy with class and work, so who will watch Trevin when we go to the hospital?

There are so many reasons he needs to stay "cooking" for a little while longer...so why am I hoping he'll come? I think I'm scared that if he waits too long, he'll be huge. I think I'm afraid that he'll decide to be late and come after my mom and dad leave (and they're not even coming until February, so I know that's ridiculous), meaning they wouldn't have the opportunity to do what they came to do - meet their newest grandson and help with all that needs helping with after I have the little guy. And I think I'm just plain excited to meet the newest member of our family and I'm dying to know how it's all going to happen! Will my water break this time, putting me into labor? Will it start with contractions again? Will my labor and delivery go smoothly and quickly? The not knowing is killing me!

At any rate, I think I've convinced myself...stay in there a little longer buddy, just not too long ;)

**Sidenote: My photo-a-day blog is updated once again, only a couple of more weeks to go!