Rain and other random thoughts...

Remember when I said that I love the rain? Well, I meant it, and I still do, but I'm starting to get sick of it. Seriously, it's the end of March and it's freezing and wet outside. We had this weather pattern last year, too, and maybe that's why I've had enough. I think it finally hit me on Monday. I was getting ready to meet some friends for lunch and as I was getting dressed, I put on a heavy vest. I looked at myself in the mirror and thought that maybe I shouldn't be wearing it. Maybe it wasn't appropriate attire. After all, it is spring. Then I realized that I live in Washington. Of course it's still cold out and of course I should wear something that is going to keep me comfortable. Dumb. Bring on the sunshine!

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Did anyone watch the season finale of Jon and Kate Plus 8 on Monday night? Let me just say that I felt a little silly and a little surprised after watching it. TLC's promo for the finale (that played ALL week) showed clips of Jon and Kate argueing over the past seasons, then a voice over saying "It's all been leading up to this..." Then, it showed Jon and Kate in the interview chair saying things like "We're at an odd place right now," "We're working on it," etc. Now, I'm not dumb. I KNOW that networks do their best to reel in viewers and suck you into their shows. Be honest...you've all gotten sucked into something...especially drama, right? Well, I totally got sucked in. I was actually quite disappointed that there could be problems brewing for the Gosselin family. Those kids are so darn cute and I've come to really like that family. Well, I couldn't wait to see the finale and get the scoop on what was going on. After watching on Monday night, let's say that either the promo was pretty misleading or the interview scenes did not reveal everything. I was honestly pretty surprised that TLC advertised the episode like they did. Definitely trying to create some excitement...

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I'm tired. It's been a weird couple of weeks.

Do you ever feel like you have a never-ending "to do" list? Before I had Trevin, I feel like I had a very short list. I worked full-time, I'd come home, try to get a few things done in the evening, relax, and start again the next day. I felt like I was accomplishing things on my list, maybe slowly, but accomplishing things, nonetheless, and I always had time to do things. Now, it's different. Obviously...I have a child and that changes everything (for the better, without a doubt), but I think I sometimes feel like I need to do so much more because I am home now. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE staying home with Trevin. I think it's the best job in the world. It's just different, and lately, it's been exhausting. I'm finding that when I stay home, I expect myself to do more. I make these ambitious lists of things I want to get done. I also have found that I do not really relax anymore. Since my time at home is spent with Trevin (which, let's be honest, is the reason I'm home) I don't get much done around the house. So when Trevin naps or goes to bed at night, or when Bryce is home and playing with him, I dash around, trying to get as much done as I can. Then, by the time I actually sit down and relax, it's 10:00 pm. Then, since I crave some downtime, I stay up until midnight...just to wake up at 7:30 the next morning and start all over again.

It's been especially tough the last couple of weeks. I love that Trevin is growing and changing, but he is much more mobile and inquisitive than he was before. The last couple of weeks have been spent redirecting him, entertaining and playing with him. I love it, but it's been SO hard for me to set aside my "to do" list. I check off maybe one thing a day, if that. Sometimes I even create new jobs that "need" to get done. I think I'm starting to realize that when I worked full time I had a starting and ending point to my work day, and now, my family and my home is my job, and while I love it, it's always there - no starting or ending point. I think I need a vacation...I'm tired!

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Trevin is growing and changing a lot. He's starting to stand while holding onto furniture and he loves to walk around while we hold his hands. Today we also discovered that he may be mimicking our words. When Bryce would say "thank you" to Trevin, Trevin would almost always say "ay hoo." Whether or not he's really trying to say "thank you," it was pretty fun to discover that today.

Here are a few pics of the little man...

That's not your shirt, Trevin!

Here's your Trevin smile for today.

Trevin can be my "maine man" anytime.

My sister, Erin, came over last night. She always has so much fun with Trevin. Here is a video of the two of them. She's essentially teasing Trevin about the way he crawls, and he thinks she's hilarious. (He's also a little slap happy...it's bedtime!)

And yes, that "whack" at the end was Trevin's noggin, hitting the tv stand. He was fine and actually didn't cry at all. Resilient boy!